Mental Health diary

Two weeks ago I caved and listened to everyone telling me to go to the doctors. I was scared. Tyler came with me, and I'm so glad he did. Knowing he would be there waiting for me when I came out was so reassuring.

After speaking and crying with the Dr he diagnosed me as being mildly depressed, and in his words, having a severe anxiety disorder. He prescribed some meds, and I've been taking them. Things haven't got any better.

I was doing well with the happy front at this point, as the picture on this post shows. I took it the day I got the meds.

I'm worse now. I don't know if that's to do with the fact I've been ill and not done anything school work wise for nearly two weeks, or the fact that we have a visit with Dad this weekend.

I have no appetite. I wanted to lose weight, but I want to do it healthily. I don't want to become a stick through not eating. I'm finally back into a size 10 Jean, but I want to be an 8. I just don't want to do it this way. I find myself forcing me to eat at times. Even Mum has noticed, if I don't clear my plate at dinner (not done for weeks), she notices and gives me a look of disapproval.

Today has been the worst day for a while. I'm crying while writing, and have been all morning. I'm scared I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown.

I have another Dr's appointment this afternoon, I'm glad about that. Tyler is coming with me again, but instead of waiting outside I'm going to ask him to come in. I think the Dr needs to hear it from someone else how I've been. Tyler thinks I've gotten worse lately too.
Hugs from my little princess are what's keeping me going at the moment. I know I have to stay strong for her. Me being like this is affecting her, and that's not fair. She needs a mummy who is able to look after her.

I'm so scared right now.

Young Mumma xx

#SilentSunday

Friday Finds

So here's the first ever Young Mummy's Friday Finds post!

1. I love love love these headphones! Aren't the deer just so cute?

2. As we're doing up the Dolls House for Willow, here's an item that I'd love to put in it!
Unfortunately I can't use the image from the website, but if you click here you can see it!

3. iWood is such a cool idea, but a little pricey for my liking! :/ Can be found here, on Amazon.

Vlog!

When I get back from my eye test I will embed the video, but for now I just wanted to get this up!

First EVERRRR vlog guys! Watch it ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JT1Q6oZuW9w

Young Mummy xxxxxxx

Dolls House Restoration.

Tyler and I have decided that for Christmas we are going to restore my old Dolls House for Willow!

I got the Dolls House for Christmas 12 years ago, and I absolutely LOVED playing with it. unfortunately the house has ended up looking a bit poorly after passing it down to my sister. I don't think I'll ever forgive her for pulling the windows out!

Memories of playing with the Dolls House are endless! I used to spend hours imagining exciting occasions with my dolly family! Now I would like to give Willow this endless enjoyment, and keep this lovely toy going for another generation - maybe it will even be something that Willow passes on to her children, I do hope so.

Tyler, of course, is very pleased to be in charge of the techy side of restoration. MY Dolls House never had any lights, but obviously Willow's version is going to be as techy as Tyler can get away with. 

Daddy and Little One enjoyed ripping the old wallpaper off. 

Keep your eyes peeled for more updates on the restoration process, as I would like to document it on here, especially so that in the future Willow can see the long process. In the mean time, if anybody has any tips or ideas for us then I would be very pleased! Just leave me a comment, even if it is what you had in your dolls house, that one little piece that you loved. :D 

Much Love, 

Young Mummy xxxxx

#SilentSunday

Biscuits - Mostly Custard Creams

I think I have a biscuit addiction. I'm genuinely serious. I can open a packet of Custard Creams and if I didn't have the willpower to stop, or a Mother around somewhere to tell me not to, I would eat them all. That is bad. AND it's unhealthy.

Biscuits will be my let down in life, big time.

NikkiMcWilliams - yum! 

Oh wow, these cushions are amazing. I need them. Nikki also does phone cases...

Perhaps I should start doing a Good Finds page, as I seem to frequently be posting cool things! Maybe I'll do that... watch this space!

Young Mummy xxx

Cute Picture

I saw this picture on NotSuperMum's Twitter yesterday and I just had to retweet it. However I don't think that was quite enough, so now I I am putting it on here so that all of you guys can appreciate it too! :) 

Well duhh?

One step for me, huge strides for her.

Tonight Willow and I went on an adventure! Half an hour before bedtime we set off for the Post Box. "Huh?" I hear you think... "Why does that matter?". But it was dark! We have never walked further than from our house to Daddy's or visa versa or from the car to the house, but tonight was different. We walked all the way round the block to the Post Box, and posted the letters.

Letters for special friends <3

These letters will be arriving with some special people within the next few days. We had so much fun decorating the envelopes - who knew stickers and stampers were so much fun for a 1 year old? Something to take on the flight next week I think!

Bye for now,
Young Mummy xxx

What I Wore Wednesday

Just a quick post for Transatlantic Blonde's What I Wore Wednesday.
Excuse the bad quality of the image, it's not actually the photo! It is my slightly smeary mirror... whoops! :)

Dress - H&M

Cardi - Newlook

Vest - Peacocks

Tights - M and Co

Belt - H&M

Boots - Newlook

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